Right now I’m just going on. I try not to think, because I don’t want to see.
A few days ago my doctor took a blood sample from me. The results were… not good. Not at all.
And he weighed me… Well, I expected this, but I hate them telling me I should gain all the time… And that I should really go into inpatient treatment, especially when loosing any more weight. It sounds like everybody is playing the same stupid broken record. Why doesn’t somebody just seize me and carries me to the next hospital so this has an end?
I cant go, I tell them all the time, not now. I will go and I’m a person who really does that and they know but nobody cares and so they’re just going on about it.
Okay, I know the problem is, that they care but I can’t get used to this idea. It sounds so strange, when it is regarding to me.
I’m getting bogged down in details…
I know it doesn’t work this way much longer but I don’t want to see yet so I’m just trying to get on as good as possible.
